The Good Doctor
The situation I am in now, its wild because not only do I not know how it is
going to turn out. I am not really sure I know how I want it to turn out. I
really have the best of both worlds. I just turned 46, my ophthalmology
practice is doing well, not just well, thriving. I finally for the first time
really don't have to worry about money. I have two good kids, Marsha and
Bradley, 11 and 7, both are well behaved and do well in school. My wife
Patricia is doing well in her position as an engineering consult with Conoco,
and we have a great, not too big 4 bedroom, 2.5 bath two story home out in
suburbia. The weather is great in North Carolina much of the time, and I
recently took up running and have noticed my little middle aged paunch is receding,
much like my hairline, but it is still thick where it is so with hair gel, I am
a pretty decent looking guy. Not hot or handsome, but I like what I see in the
mirror.
Of course, I had almost all of that, sans the running 3 years ago when I often felt
so uninterested in life I actually considered offing myself. In the end having
kids would always have stopped me, but I did think about it. I wasn't depressed
mind you, just completely disengaged. So what has changed? Why do I smile at
the mirror now instead of frown? Because in reality only 1 thing makes a man
truly content with life.
Regular sexual interaction that gets him off. Now I have that, and my stress is
gone, I have pep in my step, and I find myself curious again about life. I am
reading books again, I started taking an auto class at the community college to
finally learn how to do minor upkeep on my own damn car, and I really enjoy it.
I was always good with my hands. So what caused the change do you ask? What is
the 'catch?' The sexual interactions are not with my wife. To tell you the
truth, I think she knows. She has to have noticed the change in my attitude.
She knows me well, and knows men well.
Patricia has been pretty much sexless since our son was born. When I really
think back on it, she never really was all that into it. When we dated in
college we didn't consummate until our 9th date, and we never had that phase
people talk about where they fuck every 10 minutes. I knew what I was even in
high school, I was the slightly unathletic smart guy. Not brilliant to go to
Goldman Sachs or anything, but a good brain in my head. I was normal looking,
of English and French decent, and about 5' 10". When I first asked out
Patricia who was my lab partner in zoology, she was pretty shy and introverted.
She is a little less now, but it is still her base. But she is very pretty in
the face. High cheekbones, close set eyes, small nose. Very classically pretty,
and though the look didn't particularly turn me on, nor did her thin figure, I
knew she was probably hotter than I was ever destined to get so I hung on.
I don't mean to come off as completely shallow, I did enjoy being with her
then, and still do now. She was a big nerdy sci fi fan and we both loved Star
Wars. In fact early on that was kind of what got us talking in depth the first
time. I remember when the prequels came out, she and I camped over night. It is
the last time I really remember her being excited WITH me. Too bad she didn't
enjoy Episode 1, it
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